I’m a predator

The women in my family are of stern stuff. “Weaklings cry.” Showing vulnerability is weakness and weakness will be exploited. I learned very early in my life to hide my emotions and keep my true self camouflaged. It was as if I knew I had to protect my child self and anticipated unwrapping her when…

She left me speechless

I keep spare umbrellas in my car. I collect them at work and ask for them at other medical offices. Personally I’ve never lost an umbrella. I’m OCD and always know exactly where my “things” are. I keep the umbrellas and hand them out when it rains to people at bus stops. I don’t ride…

When your abuser dies

One day a few months ago I wondered what I will do when my mother dies. We haven’t spoken in years and at the age of 46, I am still scared of her. Even though I know physically she no longer can harm me I fear her words. Thinking about this has propelled me to…