Sometimes a shoulder is just a shoulder

My friend Paula is crippled from childhood rheumatic arthritis. When we go out together I drop her off at the door of the restaurant or we take her handicap placard to use if we know there will be a lot of walking like a concert venue. Recently we went on a girl’s weekend and I…

His top shelf girl

I wanted a Paloma tonight.  At the store, I did a mental inventory and knew I had tequila at home. I get grapefruit soda and a lime. At home, I realize I am out of Herradura and have a choice of Cuervo or Padron. I opt for the Padron.   Padron is good. The silver…

To thine self be untrue

Today I came to a disappointing realization. It began to grow as an idea two weeks ago when someone I work with said “you have to love every body.” I disagreed and said I have to help people but I didn’t have to love them. To help and serve is a human response. She tried…

Three personality types I dislike

How we are raised and then how life happens to us in adulthood shape our likes and dislikes. I am happy to say I have far more likes than dislikes. The dislikes I have though are raging strong. I hate ignorance especially when it touted as the truth. I work with a woman who votes…

The Glass Sculpture

A town decided it would like a glass sculpture erected in its Town Hall. They reached out to a renowned glass artist and asked her to visit and create something large that would reside in the giant rotunda. The artist came to the town and did numerous sketches then returned to her workshop. She returned…

the other women

Recently I learned my lover has been engaged dallying with other women. Not another woman, not two other woman but several other women. Since we have an open relationship my disappointment stemmed from his lying about it, the type of individuals he was engaging with, and his time. One thing I had noticed this last…

The Woman and Heart

Once upon a time, there was a young woman who had a heart. She fell in love and Heart swelled with joy and life seemed to be perfect. It was perfect until the day it wasn’t perfect. The young woman picked herself and shattered Heart up and to protect Heart she placed her in a…

Hello Gasoline

We all worry when we meet someone for the first time. Our nerves are ramped up and we question why we are meeting, should we have worn what we wore, and of course will we like one another? One of the worse things that could happen is you meet and have zero chemistry. Then there…

How I am like your cat but better

When your cat is hungry they annoy the piss out of you until you cave. I go from fine to hungry in 30 seconds and have been known to have a toddler level tantrum if I’m not fed. Your cat doesn’t like where you put ________ so they give you a look and you know…

When your abuser dies

One day a few months ago I wondered what I will do when my mother dies. We haven’t spoken in years and at the age of 46, I am still scared of her. Even though I know physically she no longer can harm me I fear her words. Thinking about this has propelled me to…

Sexual Revolutions

My sexuality began as a revolution. I was a young, eager, and experimental lover. I was so desperate to discover my sexual identity I tried lots of different things with lots of different people. I was 20 when I had sex in front of people for the first time. My orgasm was blinding being fueled…

Pale girl walking… but you saw that

This last week my self-assurance took a whattheeverloving fuck hit. I have pretty good self-esteem. Now. That took a lot of therapy and also maturity. I am heavier than I have ever been and only mind slightly. My spouse actually likes the change and I have to keep telling him this is temporary. Knee gets…