You host a BBQ, I’ll host a funeral

In high school, I played soccer. I was friends with two other girls on my team who known to me were a couple. With the exception of one other person, no one in our school knew. It was speculated and gossiped but their being lesbians was the great mystery for the rest of the student…

I am disgusted we are here

We are on the wire. This man will probably be appointed.  Let me tell why I feel this is not okay. Our country is currently divided. It is across racial and sexual divides. It also extends beyond generations. Younger men feel alienated from older men. This is making it worse. a man who is supposed…

I asked for my rape

My posse my senior year was Kristen and Lora.  Lora was dating a guy who told us to attend a party that Saturday in the neighboring city.  The Posse got dressed up and went to what was a high school party of frat party levels. The home was a mansion on a lake with a…

I’m their Libby

Currently I have a relationship with four people; my spouse, two men and a female. Being in an open marriage has really grown my sexuality in ways I never anticipated. I have always been a sexual creature. Even when I was a virgin I was told by an older man I oozed sex. I didn’t…

The music made me do it

I had some time to kill between appointments today. I found a nice tree to park under and read some blogs as I listened to music through the Bluetooth. A song came on from my playlist and I immediately began thinking of sex. “Love is a Bitch” by Two Feet. I went from reading a…

The awkwardness of feelings

I hate to admit it but I’ve been emotional the last two weeks. This is a new thing for me and not my norm so I’m struggling with all these…..feelings. I grew up in a home where my feelings were used against me. Signs of weakness were exploited and happiness was quashed like a mosquito…

Sometimes a shoulder is just a shoulder

My friend Paula is crippled from childhood rheumatic arthritis. When we go out together I drop her off at the door of the restaurant or we take her handicap placard to use if we know there will be a lot of walking like a concert venue. Recently we went on a girl’s weekend and I…

His top shelf girl

I wanted a Paloma tonight.  At the store, I did a mental inventory and knew I had tequila at home. I get grapefruit soda and a lime. At home, I realize I am out of Herradura and have a choice of Cuervo or Padron. I opt for the Padron.   Padron is good. The silver…

To thine self be untrue

Today I came to a disappointing realization. It began to grow as an idea two weeks ago when someone I work with said “you have to love every body.” I disagreed and said I have to help people but I didn’t have to love them. To help and serve is a human response. She tried…

Three personality types I dislike

How we are raised and then how life happens to us in adulthood shape our likes and dislikes. I am happy to say I have far more likes than dislikes. The dislikes I have though are raging strong. I hate ignorance especially when it touted as the truth. I work with a woman who votes…

The Glass Sculpture

A town decided it would like a glass sculpture erected in its Town Hall. They reached out to a renowned glass artist and asked her to visit and create something large that would reside in the giant rotunda. The artist came to the town and did numerous sketches then returned to her workshop. She returned…

the other women

Recently I learned my lover has been engaged dallying with other women. Not another woman, not two other woman but several other women. Since we have an open relationship my disappointment stemmed from his lying about it, the type of individuals he was engaging with, and his time. One thing I had noticed this last…